What have I gone through this past year? What have I learnt? What did I gain? Was there any maturity in me now compared to a year ago? Let me reflect back.
I know it’s only been a few months since I started work at the child care center but it feels like things are going to get worse as time goes on. New kids enter and some left during the first few months. It was a tough time for me as the teacher there. To get the kids settle down and parents believe in my teaching is tough.
Many incidents took place here and there. There was a fight that broke out that cause the school to take a drastic action. It was tough for me as the main teacher and it was tougher for the management. I thought at that time if teaching is this bad I might as well quit. But the management is pretty bend on me not leaving and so I stayed and upgrade myself. If I can control these kids then I can control my life. Or so I thought to myself. And so I continue the battle.
It was worth it when the kids all gave me a little something for teacher’s day. It was simply a splendid feeling. The feeling of accomplishment is simply heartbreaking in a good way. It never felt better. I never felt needed and loved like this. I wanted to be with the kids always. :p
However they always say good things never last. And so it ended. My last day at the center was in December. The center had to close down due to management problems with the place we were renting. We had no choice but to leave. Sad as it seems I feel that I can now connect to kids better and it gave me an unforgettable experience. I’m glad to have this chance to learn and grow. ^_^
It took me a few weeks only to find this job and quit my previous job and it was a painful decision at first. However now that I think back I am glad I made the decision. Now although it wasn’t my own decision I have to find a new job. It’s been half a month since I started applying to jobs and I still have none. Really wonder where I should go from now on… It’s tough but I will hang in and I’m sure the job will come along just like the last time. I will not give up until a job is found. Give me strength.
The year didn’t just consist of my battle at the center. There were other unforgettable events that took place throughout the year.
Like my dental problem. It started in 2007 but it got continued into 2008. I had two of my wisdom tooth extracted. One other tooth had to be extracted due to the terrible decay. Then I had to have fillings done and a root canal treatment done. That took a while to take care of. And finally in June it was all done. Now I have to take care of my teeth and go for regular check-ups like any other people who care about their teeth.
Next is driving. I am already above the legal age and still do not own a license and so I sign up for it. I could only afford a lesson once a week due to my schedule but I preserve and went on for my driving. In Oct I had my first practical test. I failed that due to a simple stupid mistake. And so I practice and went for my second test. However something happened two days before the test. I went for my practice session and realize that I had somehow lost my PDL. I cried and panicked. Although I tried to stay calm during the practice I couldn’t really. Then as if the sky understood my feelings, it started to pour, real hard. I couldn’t even go home in the rain. To make matter worse no one could come and pick me up. However after much begging, my brother came and fetches me. I was in such a foul mood after that. Nothing went well. However lucky me the PDL was found in my room and I immediately got better. I thank God for still loving me and giving me back my light. I promise from that day on to be more careful with my things and not to take things for granted. I passed my driving test on that second try.
We have someone new join in the family. That’s right, my big brother got married in June this year. After that he moved out of our place and into hers. Well for my younger brother it’s a good thing since now he has the whole room to himself. Well for my younger sis and me, it’s a start of a new relationship that we are still not used to. Although my big bro always tell us to get along, it’s kind of hard in a way. Anyway they both may not know this but there is a secret that we hide from them. My siblings and I swore not to tell. Hopefully that secret will dissolve and change to something better. Hopefully.
While someone joins another left. It was a sad occasion for the whole family on my dad’s side. We lost one of my aunt this year. And we lost her near a celebration that was meant to be happy. She is a dear aunt of ours. An aunt we adore for her Hari Raya cookies. However in 2009 we can never get to taste those cookies anymore. May her soul rest in peace and may God bless her soul.
Many things went by without much thought being put into it. Many things went by without us noticing. Time waits for no one and I understand that notion very well. Change is unavoidable. Thus we have to learn to adapt to the changes. Death is something that waits for everyone. We will die some day. Thus we have to live life to the fullest. Live it without any regrets as they say. I will do that. ^_^
２００８ありがとう。忘れない。
