Imagine that life is a roller coaster with all the ups and downs and sharp turns. A different person would have a different roller coaster course. Some would have an easy roller coaster ride while others would have the most terrifying ride.
Over the years I found mine to be constantly under construction.I wouldn't know what the course in front of me will be. I won't know whether it's a climb, a drop or a turn. I won't know until I reach it.
In my early childhood it has been a steady ride. Not much climb or drop. A simple children roller coaster ride. When I was in secondary school, there were many uphills and drastic downhills. Moving onto JC, there were sharp turns, long drops and steep uphills. In university, everything even out and the ride became somewhat smoother and easier.
Stepping into the working world was a long drop for me. It was too tiring to go uphill that most of the time my roller coaster slid backwards. The hill was simply to high to climb. When I quit my first job and moved onto the second one, a new hill appeared and I began my climb once more. This time with new energy and motivation. But when the company had to close its doors, I tumble down way too fast that it is scary. I had to pull the brakes and get it on an even horizontal path.
It was then that I got a temp offer. Jumping on it was like getting a new roller coaster car. It was a smooth ride. When I got another offer I was on another smooth ride. Well until now... Right now I think I have reached the peak where one small mistake and you are being pushed down the hill. And when you pulled the brake and go on a steady horizontal path, the downhill comes along yet again. And right now, I feel that I have been through so many of those downhill that I feel if I were to go down further, I would most probably end up underground.
But looking at how things are right now, I would most probably end up underground. Things are not going smoothly for me at the moment and because of the mental stress, even my body is stressed. I had an emotional breakdown not too long ago. Even the effects are still around. I can simply cry if you provoke me just the slightest. Then just last Sunday, my digestive system got infected. Had to endure the pain till Monday to see the doctor. The doctor is good looking but it doesn't help cure me. Even with the medication, I am still in pain. Wonder why? After emotional breakdown and physical breakdown, now my mental state is also unstable. Having all three in one is simply a disaster. I wonder how am I still working in this state? Really I need a vacation. Or maybe to quit altogether. I am so tired of this already.
